Mindfulness—Mindsight
The Mind Body Connection
Who
Who wove this tangled spider web
that wraps itself around my vital organs
Who created this monster Octopus
with its cruel arms
that strangle my inside parts
causing so much pain
Mommy was it you
MINDSIGHT—Check out this web site at: http://drdansiegel.com/
He's hit the head on the nail.
My Story
I've spent the last eight years doing research on trauma and recovery, PTSD and healing an injured mind through the mind/body connection. I was a victim of cumulative childhood traumas and my brain was altered at an early age by my Gestapo-like mother. I had a right brain awakening eight years ago that led to a period of hypergraphic writing, and to me becoming an avid researcher to avoid falling victim to a therapeutic world who wants to treat people like me with drugs and therapeutic labeling and confusion. I didn't know what I was doing in the beginning and had no coaching but came to the same conclusion as Dr. Dan Siegel.
My theory in the beginning was that if the brain can be altered it can be changed back. So that is what I set out to do and that is what I did.
This idea of Mindfulness can help so many people like me who suffer from Fibromyaligia, Chronic Myofasial Pain and Post Traumatic Stress. I feel strongly that victims are empowered by understanding the brain and viewing their problems from a neuro-scientific viewpoint. I wish I could have found Dr. Seigels work at the beginning of my journey of healing. But alas I did find it. My hope is that this research and insight will spread out to people like me who have had to suffer so much because of not knowing or understanding the mind body connection. (Knowledge Dispenses Fear)
Introduction
I was rendered silent against my will as a small child. For me silence reigned. My mother used fear to silence and control me. This altered the way I would walk, look and react to life. This is where the mind/body connection came in to play.
I was about six years old when silence began to rule over me and it would be more than forty years later before I would begin to understand the mind/body connection.
I lived with pain my whole life and never understood why. My muscles were always tied in knots screaming for relief. So why didn’t I listen? It was because I was trained to ignore the pain. Trained to push myself beyond my limits. My mother marched through her life and I was to march along with her—and march I did.
This marching through life and ignoring my pain became normal to me. My mother’s voice was implanted so deep within my mind that I didn’t even know it was her voice still controlling me, even after she died. It wasn’t until I started to have flashbacks of my childhood and found my self near a physical and emotional collapse that I started doing research on trauma and recovery, the child within and the mind body connection.
I know I’m not alone. There are so many of us who suffer today from this cruel reign of silence, so many of us who live with chronic pain every day of our lives. It is for this reason that I share my story. A story of someone who searched right down to the roots of body and soul to free themselves from the tentacles of an octopus that tangled their inside parts. A story of giving voice to a silence child. A story of survival and of healing an injured mind though understanding and rerouting the mind/body connection.
Stay tuned. More to come.
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